CONFESSION

I only just miss my first love. He let me go to better his relationship with his long term girlfriend. He was my bestfriend, for 4 years and i would never think that he would just leave me for the dust but he did. I understand that as humans we have to make sacrifices and decisions that we don’t want to make but need to make. Letting me go was one of thise decisions he chose to make. I don’t know whether or not if he truly was waiting for this moment or he just did it because his girlfriend said so. I will never know how he feels about it or anything. I reached out to him and got ignored after i changed my number. I don’t know if he knows its me or not but he didn’t reply… he read it but never responded. He unfollowed me on everything besides snapchat. He knew I changed my number so maybe he assumed it was me who texted him which is why he didnt reply. But honestly i can only assume. I wish that we were still cool. Deep down i feel like we are but idk because he unfollowed me on everything so i just assume he doesn’t want anything to do with me. It really hurt my feelings but it was a choice he made because he had too… idk if he wanted to but thats another story. I wont reach out to him again because i know he hates me… it was crazy because just a week before that he said he loved me and that we were always going to be friends no matter what. We had this bond that i never had with anyone else and its all gone now. I wish that we could have still been close but its over now. I had a dream about him lastnight and its crazy because the night before that i said to myself “If i dream about him we’ll still cool” because i use to dream about him all the time. And i saw him in my dreams lastnight.. dreams don’t necessarily mean anything or can determine that but i hope deep down that he still loves and cares about me but we’ll never know…….